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The Power of Forgiveness - the Blog 07/08/2009

Isn't it funny how relieving it can be when we let go and forgive. It is like a 1000 pound weight is lifted off our chest and we can breath again. For most of us we didn't realize how much pressure there was until we let it go because it was all we knew.

I was working with a client recently who had never done any sort of work such as Life Coaching, Polarity, Hypno, ect. As I began to ask him questions about his life I realized he had so much pinned up unforgiveness within him. He told me when he was 10 years old his Mother and father were killed by a drunk driver. His life become a nightmare in a blink of an eye. The story he told only became more profound for me because at 10 years old the only stability he knew was ripped out from underneath him. He was put into a foster home where his life only became a nightmare, because he began to get molested nightly by another young man in the home. His voice was taken away and he just began to submit to the nightly abuse because he felt he had to. He told me he thought God was punishing him because he had horrible thoughts of one day finding the man who killed his mother and father in the accident and killing him. He only knew one thing - Revenge.

Throughout the next few years of his life he continued to hold on to the thought of hurting this man who killed his family. He ran away from every home he was put into and eventually started to live on the street. He found out that a way to numb his pain was through drugs and they way he would get the drugs was to sell his body on a street corner to any man or women who would pain for it. His "fix" was heroin and it cost him $30.00 - so that was his price to anyone who would pay for it. He spent 20 years of his life living this existence - sharing with me all the horrible things he experienced and witnessed. He became HIV+ at the age of 16 and also carries hep C in his liver.

I asked him whom he had told in his life about his life and about his thoughts of wanting to kill the man who accidentally killed his parents? He said, "No, one until now" I was so blown away at this moment because I realized he had been holding on to this anger, hatred, resistant, pain, victimness since he was 10 years old. These things were like a horrible cancer eating him up from the inside and then manifesting out into his life in horrible, painful, self-sacrificing ways.

I asked him to just spill out everything, which was on his mind. The list started and continued to grow longer and longer. I was trying to write down everything he was telling me and my hand could not write fast enough. It was like the door to Pandora's box was opened and what came out was unbelievable dark, negative and all about stealing his power. I felt like a tornado had just spun around in the room and then all the sudden he became quiet and spoke out to me, "Oh my God, I can't believe the things I have been holding onto. I can't believe all of those things were inside of me and that I have never talked to anyone about this. I have been living this way for so many years and all the sudden by me just speaking out these things it feels like a 1000 pound weight has been lifted of my chest." At this moment I noticed there was a new expression on his face, which I had never seen before. It was like a light bulb had went off in his mind. I asked him, "What?" He said, "I have to let go of my hatred for this man because not only did he kill my parents but I am now allowing him to kill me and all my dreams. The hatred and unforgiveness has stolen so much from me and in order for me to move on and have a life beyond the one I know I must forgive him, myself and anyone else who did me wrong and release the pain to God knowing my parents are ok." Yes, I said, Yes! I then had an image in this moment that champagne bottles were popping off in heaven and his parents and God were celebrating his new awareness and his new life of forgiveness! I believe there will be more work to be done with this young man, but what I do know is he has begun a new life, a new way, a new normal and a happier more fulfilling life full of possibility and forgiveness of others and most importantly himself.

Wow - I love the work I do. Thank you Spirit for allowing me to be the vessel I am.

In Divine Timing,
Richard Seaman

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